I have battled depression a few times in my life. 2005-06 were very dark days for me. I was doing something I loved; teaching, and more importantly, teaching students who very much wanted to learn because they want a decent job. (As opposed to teaching at my alma mater. I love my time at Coe but I was able to have a much bigger impact at Hamilton than I could have had at Coe.)
Unfortunately for me, my direct supervisor Linda jumped ship. I loved working for her. To have a department chair you trust 100% is gold. After that I was adrift working at a place where the woman running the place is/was an insecure person who took out her fears on those who worked for her. When the movie "Bad Bosses" came out it was difficult to watch because I had worked for someone was evil incarnate. When she was finally fired by the parent company literally dozens of former Hamilton/Kaplan employees and students commented on my wall. Because everyone knew she was my nemesis they came to my wall. For me, it was karma.
In 2006 my birthday was on a Saturday. For a Saturday birthday I think you are obligated to do something fun. I was in such a low functioning state that I couldn't put together anything to see/do with anyone for that birthday.
I do not know if this is a repeat of 2006 but I do know that like 2006 I have not done a good job of keeping in touch with the people who have shown me love and support.
My sincere hope is that those who care about me will continue to care about me regardless of how I act in the next couple of months.
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